Howdy Friends and Happy Tuesday! Today will be my first day at work for the week so here’s to hoping it is not the “Mondayest” Tuesday ever. It is also Tasty Tuesday over at The Blended Blog so be sure to stop by to see what I’ve cooked up and share your own favorite recipes via the linkup.
Today I’m going to have a little whine if that’s okay with you! Don’t worry, I’ll also share a wine colored outfit if that makes up for it!
Yesterday I took off work to accompany my sweet Mamaw to the neurologist. She is 91 and the trip exhausts both of us each time we have to go. You see, in my small, sleepy hometown there are no longer any specialists and we have to travel about 50 miles for her visit. I decided caring for an elderly person is much like having a pre-schooler again and I just needed to get back into practice. Planning more time than I need for the trip and transitioning between the car and where we need to be, planning our meals around her picky appetite and being prepared for her to say whatever the heck is on her mind no matter who else is around is a must. She is beginning to forget just a bit and I believe she asked me the same questions probably no less than 15 times in our short drive which so reminded me of my kids when they were little. Oh, and of course you have to be prepared for potty accidents because sometimes we just cannot move fast enough to make it. It was a long day.
Getting older and watching those we love get older is hard but, y’all, I had the best day with her. My Mamaw, as I’ve shared before, has seen so much sadness in her life. She has every single reason to just lay it down. If I had watched all my children become sick and die as well as two husbands, I don’t even know how I would get out of bed each day. Not only does she get up every day but she puts on her face and she gets all dressed up and she finds a way to smile and make jokes (even if she’s making fun of the doctor’s outfit). She still questions why God would have given her these struggles in life and I’ve finally learned to acknowledge her pain instead of ignoring it and trying to just make her move on. Somehow losing a bit of her short term memory has lead her to remember things from long ago and she has shared so many stories with me about my dad, his siblings and the early relationship between she and my grandpa. Sweet, beautiful memories which I need to hear to remember she once had it all. It’s such a sweet and sorrowful reminder that every single day is a gift and I need to stop with my petty whining and soak it all up.
The past week I caught myself feeling sorry for myself more than I should. Internally I was whining ALOT and looking for praise and approval from my family. I know it was mostly hormonal but when I am there in that place it seems so lonely and I want to just throw in the towel and give it all up. It’s at those times, I hope in the future I will think of my Mamaw and I will stop feeling sorry for myself and instead fix myself up and keep loving and serving those around me in the rawest way possible from deep down in my heart.
Enough whining already! I’m loving this chambray top I picked up on whim when I popped in Francesca’s recently. I already owned these wine colored shorts so it was a perfect combo. I know this top will look great with white jeans too! Of course I was also doing a little forward thinking as Aggie football will be here before I know it and this top is definitely going to make an appearance! Francesca’s is always hit or miss for me but this top is definitely a win!
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