In February of 1990 I found myself like many other college students. I had just received my acceptance letter from A&M and while I was very excited there was another test that would change my life forever. Seeing that blue line confirmed I was pregnant. While school came fairly easy to me and I had been a good student, outside the classroom I was somewhat rebellious. I had found myself for years making bad choice after bad choice and was definitely part of the party crowd. So there I was in the second semester of my sophomore year and the first trimester of a pregnancy that would change my life forever.
I moved to College Station that June and began summer school at Texas A&M. That summer I lived alone and had so much time to just think about my life and the choices I made. So many days I just sat and watched my sweet baby move around. I had a reason to want to be a better person and I knew that no matter what I faced in the future there was nothing more important than being the best mom I could be.
On October 6, 1990, after being in labor all night this sweet little angel came into the world and she was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I never felt so much love in my heart as I did when I saw her face. She was perfect.
Being a mom is probably the hardest thing I’ve ever done but I would not trade a moment. Jordan made being a mom so easy. She was an easy going baby and an easy to correct toddler. I never needed outlet plugs or cabinet locks as she only needed to be told “no” once.
Jordan was a happy little girl who loved her friends and family and was always looking out for those who could not defend themselves. She loved animals and loved to dance. When she was four and I signed her up for dancing she said “Mom, why do I need to go to lessons I already know how to dance!”
She became a really great soccer player and as sweet as she was off the field she did not offer any mercy to her opponents on the field. I was quite shocked by her toughness. She was a hard worker and pushed herself on the field and in the classroom. I loved watching her play.
She graduated from high school with honors and as beautiful as ever. Despite a few little outburst, Jordan was such an easy child to parent. She was low drama, worked hard in school and was very responsible.
A short 3 1/2 years later and she graduated from Texas A&M…..completing what I set out to do years before.
This beautiful girl saved my life 24 years ago….saved me from myself and gave me the motivation to want to be a better person every day. She was the perfect gift at the perfect time. My heart is so full with pride when I look at her. She is beautiful and smart and has so much to offer the world. My hope for her is that someday she will look in the mirror and see exactly what I see. I am so grateful that God picked me to be her mom.
Happy 24th Birthday Jordan Ashlee. I love you to the moon and back!
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