Searching for her approval instead of searching for God’s approval has robbed her of my unconditional love and robbed me of being able to fully love myself. No one is perfect and I am always going to have days where I am not proud of my actions but to rob myself of the grace God has offered only stands to lead me into a spiral that can lead nowhere fast.
At the end of the day, I know my mom is incredibly proud of me. She has never once turned away from me regardless of the decisions I have chosen in life. It is my weak spot to question whether that love is truly unconditional and satan knows that. For now I am going to focus on letting God’s word lead my decisions and give myself grace on the days when I blow it.